Lorena Velázquez

Testimony

2020

During the lockdown we were forced to wear our feelings on our sleeves, remember sensations and emotions. Like many women, I was sexually abused when I was a child; I lived with this secret for many years. I was completely silent about what happened. In therapy, I worked for years to eradicate the trauma left by this unfortunate event, to erase what was consuming me. But while I was confined in my house, and after months of not dreaming at all, I had an eye-opening dream that made me remember those years lived in silence. I could clearly remember the revulsion, the fear, and all the sensations that, for years, I kept to myself. In 2020 I can raise my voice without being pointed at.

This attack marked me as a young woman, but in my dream, I turned my scars into tattoos.

This book symbolizes my impotence. The passage from a child to a tortured, silenced woman. I had to remain silent in order to survive.

Thank you for inviting me to work on my dream. Thank you to the organizers and each one of the participants for sharing with me this moment of great intimacy, which was enriching, and therefore extremely valuable. Thank you to Jung for his legacy and particularly to his Red Book.